Yes, yes. I did it again. Title is lyrics from the Trapt song Echo (in case you dont know) yet I'm listening to a song I swear and promise I cant stand Damaged. But for some reason it's in my thoughts and my mind and everywhere I turn. And to make it worse it use to remind me of a person who can no longer stand me (no I wasn't really upset over the end of the friendship it was very one sided). But now when I hear it i think of my trip to VA and how when I was on the dance floor I couldn't feel anything. Emotions or thoughts, there was nothing and I was dacing through it all sweating through it all trying to cry, trying to understand the pain that had left me feeling this empty but i couldn't. I couldnt feel anything but the music and cachorro's body pressed against mine. Even jogging this morning to it all those feeling oddly returned and I end up running faster kind of like I was trying to run from the song. Or maybe the feelings I'm not really sure but it makes me move while I hate it. *sigh* not what I was suppose to be talking about so I'm gonna try again.

As for the title, yes I'm ready to close my eyes and let the whole thing pass me by. So much is going on it's making me feel a lil more insane then normal. Emotions are insane (no not mine, I'm trying my best to control them) Understanding is completely lost. Words are either insanely hurtful or just dont matter at all. But then again it only seems that way on my part. And then while all this is going on I'm unbeliveable happy and can't believe this isnanely happy thing that has happened in my life. Hell I'm still pinching my self to ask and see if its real. If this is really gonna happen and how strongly its got a hold of my heart. I'm pretty sure I should be screaming my head off some more (like I did Saturday night and woke half the neighborhood!!) But its got me doing other things and doing things I never completely saw myself doing. But I'm soooo happy and can't wait for it to get even more real.(yeah i kno that made no sense what so ever!)

So sadly for awhile I'm gonna take a vaction from all my activites that aren't school related or related to this thing happening. I'm planning on starting bartending classes(no not the happy thing!! lol) and class starts in october for me so I'm getting ready for that. And well yeah getting ready for a lot more then that as and may already know. So I'll log on everyonce in awhile to check comments and read all the work that i love that would be yours!! So I send my love to all that have read my work and supposrted me and favorited me. Tell your friends get me more watches please and everyone keep up the great amazing work!!!! Later DA world and as always

Beware the Thorns~~;@